Never let love slide away even if it's a one-sided love.

You just came into my life and i'm already starting to fall for you. What's with me? I shouldn't be falling in love with anybody, at all. I can't control my feelings no matter how hard i try. Oh well, i'm a weakling. And now, i don't even know the 'story'. Whether what you said is true or not. I want to believe you. But something in my mind tells me that i should not trust guys anymore. What do they do daily? Flirt, lie, hurt feelings and much much more sad things. Well, not all though. Just referring to some. These guys don't have hearts. Or even if they have one, it is made of steel. They totally can't feel anything. They say 'i love you' daily like as if they don't mean it. The meaning is gone. They are all just lying to make us girls happy. IN the end of every relationships, it's the girls who struggle and suffer. Majority of the guys just forget about it, move on, and then act like nothing has happened. And worst of all, most of them start to ignore us girls after the breakup. The one who would be cryingctheir hearts out are the girls. It has never been about the boys. They take things too lightly. It's just so easy for most of them to move on when we all take days, months, or even years to move on. Sometimes i wonder, don't they have feelings? -.- Well what i sayoght be true but it might be wrong as well. I won't know what is inside a guy's mind and heart anyways. The best thing is to not get into relationships with them. But i only have one issue. What if i can't control myself?

Okay halluuu everybady. (: Imma talk about what happened today. Couldn't meet up with dearests cos i was late. Woke up at 630AM and got out at about 7AM. The bus was full and so i had to take the 241A bus, which stops at Pioneer MRT station. -.- Had to walk to school and i thought i was gonna be late, but i reached on time. I saw Sharim on the way to school and i could sense that he wanted to talk to me but i ignored him and didn't face him at all. Sorrryyyy. :/ K then first period was Maths. Then Science. Was so damn tired and sleepy that i couldn't pay attention in class. My eyes kept on wanting to close. >-< then recess, and then history. During history had test. Halfway through the test, MRCHEN called me out. He wanted to talk about the FAS broadband that one and i said i didn't need it anymore. He was checking my name on the checklist, and then i saw Z's name too. That made me suddenly remember about him, and it made me miss him more. ): So yeah. English did group discussion practice. Then PW was last period. Went to interchange with Irliana after buying food from canteen. At home, basically i did nothing. Cos my mum was not at home. Just went to facebook, wallpost with Kim Sun Hyeok, awesome guy. ^o^ Then i completed my Maths Revision Exercise. All homeworks done, and now i'm gonna end this post. Kthxbai. [His phone is spoilt and he doesn't have a spare phone. Haish. I want text him so damn bad. OH and anyways, it's not Z. I might be missing Z and all, but like what he said, we're not possible and so i don't want to put any false hope on myself. Whatever it is, i shouldn't be texting him often if i want to forget him. Is it wrong to be bestfriends back. Haish. What's his problem? I just don't understand him anymore. Now it's seriously up to him to decide on what our relationship is gonna be. I'll let him decide, cos i've lost complete hope in him. IF he wants to treat me this way, i'll gladyly accept reality. But if he regrets and wants to get close to me again, all i can say to him is, it's too late.]