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Helluuuu awesomez! My name is Adilah. First thing you need to know about me is that i'm a k-pop bias. I blow candles on every 08`09. I love Red and everything Red, including Elmo and Angry Birds. I learn ABC in JWSS of class 3E2. I adore 2PM, BOYFRIEND, BEAST, 2AM, SNSD, Secret, SS501, Ft Island & more. I'm somebody friendly who loves making friends with strangers. I love putting smiles on people's faces too. I may be kind at times, but also harsh at times. I'm not as innocent as i look, i admit that. I treat people the way they treat me. Adios~

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Monday, July 25, 2011

Why fake smiles, just to please your loved ones? If they really care about you, they'll comfort you when you're sad; not be happy when you're sad.


Useless. A disappointment. Weak. Severe attitude problem. Loner. Irritating. Stupid. Yes, all these words very well describes me. I'm useless. I can't seem to help anybody in anything. I can't cheer people up when they're down. I can't put a smile on people's faces. I'm a disappointment. People all care about me, telling me to cheer up and all that. But all i do is just to feel down and not trying to cheer up. I'm weak. I cry at little little things. I am too weak that i can't stop myself from crying. Crying for no reason; that's what i always do. People say i'm a crybaby. You can say that too. I don't mind.

I have severe attitude problem. I curse and swear for no reason at times. I ignore people when they ask me if i'm okay and when they try to cheer me up. I admit i have attitude problems. But i can't control it. What do you expect me to do? I'm a loner. I feel left out most of the times. Sometimes i wonder if my current circle of friends are my true friends. I don't know who are my true friends and who are the fake ones. I feel like i'm just being used by people so that they won't be lonely when their friends leave them. And when their friends are with them, i'm being forgotten. Awesome much?

I'm irritating. I talk a lot. Especially about unnecessary stuffs. People get sick and tired of me. I'm stupid. When i've done things wrongly, i regret. I know time can't be turned back. And i was stupid enough to make decisions without thinking.

Like seriously, what a sad life i have. I can't think positive anymore. Sometimes i even feel like taking away my life. There's too much problems in my life which i can't handle. One by one, these problems start to appear in my life. All i need is time and time! Give me time and i'll be able to solve these mothereffing problems. Fml, like seriously. I can't smile anymore. I don't want to fake smiles too. Let me just stay this way forever. You're not happy with me and my awesome attitude? I don't live to please any of you. -'- Pfft.