You can't change what's done, you can't go back in time. You can't try to change the hurt feelings or mend the broken hearts.

I am forgotten by most people. I am somebody whom people think can be taken advantage of. They all don't know that i have a heart. That i have feelings. They treat me like some kind of rubbish. When in need, they use it but when done using it, it goes down the rubbish bin. Same goes to my situation. When people need me, they would come finding me. But when i am no longer needed, i get dumped and pushed aside. Firstly, i hate people who aren't true to me. If this always happens to me right, i think it's better if i'm just alone. Be a loner in simple terms. I don't get appreciated, and people just take me for their spare tyre. What awesome friends i have, huh.

Friends who come and go. Friends who doesn't know what's the true meaning of friendships. Nah, i don't need you guys. Seriously speaking, i'm better off without you guys. Even if it means i have to be alone, i'll do whatever it takes to make you guys feel the same like i'm feeling right now. And i'll do anything to get rid of you 'friends'. Last of all, goodbye to you people. And have fun without me in your lives k. :)

Does he no longer care for me? Or is he just trying to show that he doesn't care anymore? I'm sick and tired of all these games. Heart breaking, confused feelings. Like seriously, can't you just tell me directly your current feelings? Stop beating about the bush. It's seriously seriously so irritating. At one point of time, you would start being friendly to me and the next moment, you act cold towards me. Hey boy, make up your mind will ya? You told me that we can't be together anymore, but after that you started calling me dear, once. Are you trying to give me false hope or what? Another thing. You are trying to purposely break my heart or what? You kept reminding me of the sweet moments we spent together at the library.

Our first date when we were attached. You suddenly reminded me of that moment and the memories came flooding back to me. I cried while thinking about it. I knew i was in the wrong for breaking up our 2 month relationship. I know it was my fault too that you didn't believe in love anymore. But you didn't have to purposely make me feel guilty. And after doing all those, you just said sorry. I seem to be able to read your sarcasm, Mister. You even told me that maybe i am still in a dilemma. A dilemma of thinking about US. Truthfully, yes i do. But i just didn't want to tell you. Cos even if i tell you, it won't change a thing. And you wouldn't even care, sadly.

#88 ; I wish my brain had a map to tell me where my heart should go.

So yeahhhh. Hello lovelies. :) it's a wednesday morning now and i'm busy completing my homeworks. Have to do maths corrections for Book 1 and Book 2, corrections for maths worksheet which i have no idea how to do because i sidn't get a copy of the answer sheet. Shag. Then have to do revision exercise also because tomorrow got test. Not only that, but i still have to do the shadow puppet thingy. Kns ehh. Alot of things to be done. Can get stressed out anytime sial. :/ but never mind. It's the fasting month now and i have to endure the challenges being given to me. S i'll relax. :)

Oh yeahhh, 2nd week of fasting month is gonna end in 4 days. So fast, i likeeeeey-likeeee. Heehee. :> hope that time would fly faster and then by the time i know it, it's gonna be September! My birthday month. And of course my best best friend's birthday month too! Will get her a present pretty pretty soon. Maybe after i collect money from visiting people's house during Hari Raya? ^-^ can't wait for all these exciting events to happen. And i've already thought of an early birthday wish. Which i won't tell anybody. :) okay then. I have to start completing my homeworks and revise for the tests which are coming up. Till here then. Baibai lovelies.